that Christmas is approaching. Yes, I have a keen grasp of the obvious. Thank you for pointing that out.
We're going to have it at home this year. Emily is looking forward to it and getting excited about the whole thing. I am looking forward to giving her a nice holiday but on the other hand, I haven't done Christmas since 2002, and I think just a few minutes ago it hit me how hard it is going to be. I was posting on a parenting board (one I've been part of since I was about 3 weeks pg with Hannah) about upcoming holidays when it kind of took over.
I think I've been just thinking about individual components of it -- the presents one day, food another, decorating, etc. but the big picture, a family Christmas of our own but without Hannah, hadn't entered my mind. Or perhaps I was just trying very hard not to see it.
Damn. I have a feeling I've just fallen off this nice little plateau I had been coasting on for the past several weeks. Suddenly I feel very, very bad.
Good thing I see the shrink tomorrow.
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